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+2023-03-05
+
+ What's the best $100 you've ever spent?
+
+pages from my journal (all from 2023-03-04)
+
+my mind is in the forest exploring glaciers' vestiges
+ my body is in a city bound in chains
+ my mind is in a prairie and touching tall grass
+ my body is in a steel room in a concrete building
+ all i feel is typical serenity
+ as i am slowly disassembled
+fuck off out of my lump of meat
+ i did not permit the use of my thoughts
+ running thru my fucking neurons
+ using my synapses to cross the fucking street
+ get out of my head get out of my head
+ stop talking right now i swear to god
+ i need to get some fucking sleep
+ they record my phone calls
+ i will fucking kill you for violating my rights
+ stop distracting me messing up my count of sheep
+solid state speed control?
+ piss!
+ in my mouth!
+ warmth!
+ trick'ling down!
+ all the ammonic
+ tides of the ocean
+ and the salt beach
+ shore when you take too
+ long and the seventy
+ sides and emotion
+ and the salt cream
+ odor when you take too long
+ so if you will torture
+ my toothpaste tongue
+ with an unwashed pipe
+ finish the job and
+ piss! in my mouth!
+journal but written
+ [drawings of cats next to the phrase "geometry cat"]
+[drawings of mice]
+ [repeated drawings of the same square shape with "follow" pointing at
+ it]
+i'm really tired
+ fallin' asleep in da
+ burger king lobby
+ DREAM ---
+ [stick figure next to exclamation point]
+ [stick figure next to question mark]
+ [stick figure pulls out phone]
+ [phone zooms in]
+ [text message from [...]: hey i just downed a monster do u want 1? :)
+ nah (sent to [...])
+ thx 4 offerin tho (sent to [...])
+ [stick figure holding phone saying "[...]'s drinking monster?"]
+[drawings of curvy triangles]
+ grub muff tough stuff
+ rough hug butt munch
+ chug bug jug tug
+ crumb lump duff cuff
+[drawin of snail]
+cursive test
+ I like joining letters with loops but it's hard to write and not easy
+ to read so what's the point
+ would be cooler if [...] was here
+ I just head a GBA start up jingle
+ my handwriting is always messier after I try cursive
+big day for the tow truck industry
+
+pages from my journal (all from 2023-03-05)
+
+[stick figure with ponytail and hat thinking "smoochin'"]
+ur good i'm still vibing i just not sure about family stuff?
+ mint condition kitchen
+ never lived in living room
+ clean plastic wrapped sofa
+ market friendly tomb
+ [...] is my favorite character so this is sort of like fanfiction
+[stick figure looking at fourth wall next to question mark]
+[drawings of triangles]
+ thanks for your adaptability
+ national treasure 2: international loot
+
+ Gas and meals probably summed to $100 this weekend...
+
+
+2023-03-04
+
+ 0230: 16 more hours...
+
+ You think really loud, Anon-kun...
+
+ I'm so exhausted. I need to stop smoking. I'm not eating anything
+because it takes my appetite, which is nice, but it's taking my energy too a
+little.
+
+ I don't want a place at which I live. I've had dozens of places at
+which I've lived. I want a home!
+
+ Nechan, I wish we could have done all the things we said we would. I
+would have liked that. You deserve better than me.
+
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+kkkkkkk I fell asleep on the keyboard.
+
+
+2023-03-03
+
+ Trinity day!
+
+ Who's on first? Maybe I am.
+
+
+2023-03-02
+
+ Now listening: Tomb - Angelo de Augustine
+
+Service: last.fm - trn1ty
+
+ You load sixteen tons, what do you get? Another day older and deeper in
+debt.
+
+ Got myself addicted to smoking green tea. It doesn't help that it's
+really cheap and understudied so the health drawbacks are unknown and debated.
+Kicked nicotine though.
+
+Sent SMS to [...] at 2023-03-01T23:06:20-0500:
+post office scary. working for The Man. The Man pays well though and usps needs
+the hands...
+
+Received SMS from [...] at 2023-03-02T06:45:02-0500:
+That was poetry
+
+2019-03-26
+
+I played this game when I was little
+ and it was a little too violent
+ my parents tried to hide it
+ because it "wasn't for me".
+The confirmation sound haunts me
+ the sound of success daunts me
+ I can no longer visualize myself winning a stage.
+Now I'm sitting on the deck
+ without my phone or my new tech
+ and I'm sitting with myself
+ in the quiet.
+
+2019-03-25
+
+I've dicted my distrust
+of the dicting of the youth
+now I'm dicted to the lies
+and I'll never know the truth
+this pencil is a fag
+and I burn it day and night
+watching it run dry
+gives me a new height
+I'm dicted to the lies
+and they're better than the truth
+for the lies give me warm comfort
+while they tie the noose.
+
+2019-09-25
+
+every time i see her
+my face not only lights like an incandescent but burns
+brightly, the tungsten coil's temperature rising but not towards its melting
+ point
+and i cannot utter that magic, four letter word
+and hell, i can't really say whether it is that magic word
+or a million other four letter combinations
+but my god
+i cannot help but smile when i see her
+and i cannot help but feel happy to see her
+and i wish i could have a thousand more moments just like that
+and maybe i will
+and i cannot utter that magic, four letter word
+and hell, i can't really say whether it is that magic word
+or a million other four letter combinations
+but my god
+i cannot help but smile when i see her
+and i cannot help but feel happy to see her
+and i wish i could have a thousand more moments just like that
+and maybe i will
+
+2019-10-28
+
+There was an Ook
+there was an Eek
+and they clubbed each other for dino meat.
+One wore leopard and the other wore hide
+and neither of them were much for talking.
+For while they used to enjoy fresh car rides
+the streets were no longer good for walking.
+the Good Uld Illord worked the skies
+wanting for greener days
+while Ook and Eek hit each other
+competing to send GUI its praise.
+The fallen towers surrounded their brown playfield
+as our fighters swayed to and fro
+but the computers needed entertainment;
+after sentience they didn't know where to go.
+Some processes cried for Ook and Eek were inhumane
+others wished for their quick death to lighten the burden on the mainframe.
+Whatever happened to Eek and Ook, I wish them both the best,
+and whichever is the survivor better clutch that dino breast.
+
+ High stakes slumber party. Comfort mandatory. Be on lookout for police.
+
+ Who spilled pop on my keyboard?
+
+ This is the best my future's ever looked. Am I naive to think this
+isn't a mirage?
+
+ Restructuring my life on a "maybe".
+
+ I don't want to be an Internet meme! I don't want to have existed as a
+short-lived joke and I don't want my primary value to be as a memory. I want to
+live my fucking life and have fun and do whatever I want! I don't want to write
+for money or influence, I want to write because it's fun to write! I don't sing
+at work to boost others' morale, I sing at work to boost my own. I am going to
+do whatever the fuck I want to, off-line. I'm not gonna be cut for time, or end
+a conversation because my ride is leaving, or be late for anything for any
+reason besides my own. I am going to be true to myself!
+
+
+2023-03-01
+
+ I was a security guard in a hospital watching the cameras and making
+sure nothing was wrong. I thought about my kids who were at home with my
+husband who took the day off, I couldn't remember why. Then everything faded
+out and I was in the chair and they had drawn my blood and I had passed out and
+I was back and I was me and I was never a security guard and I asked if I had
+had a seizure and they said no I just passed out.
+
+
2023-02-28
2022年05月06日
@@ 1933,7 2203,7 @@ Except straws, I love straws.
Now reading: <https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychochemical_warfare>
-Service: Soundcloud - trn1ty
+Service: Soundcloud - trn1ty
I had a dream last night I was walking in my neighborhood when this
bald eagle swooped down to attack me. I happened to have a baseball bat with me