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title: Reflecting on 2019

Well, that's another year almost over. They seem to be happening faster
and faster these days.

2019 was an interesting year for me. It bought me some significant
challenges, but I've managed to overcome most of them to put myself in a
much stronger position for 2019.  

Be aware: There is nothing technical, nor particularly interesting, in
this blogpost. I'm writing this for me; as a pat on the back for making
it through some immense personal struggles. If you're the kind of person
who's interested in that, press on. If not, I won't hold it against you.
There's much more interesting stuff in the pipeline, hold out for that!

The rise and fall of $deskjob
-----------------------------

I started 2019 in what I thought was a fairly good place - I was still
in the honeymoon phase of a new job, enjoying some new-found stability,
and generally finding my feet after a turbulent summer.

However, coming from a summer of work which had me climbing scottish
hills to install point-to-point radio links, and splicing fibre against
the lush backdrop of Loch Hourn had really depleted my tolerance for
sitting at a desk five days a week, even if what I was doing sat at that
desk was still very cool and engaging.

At the same time, I found myself finding it harder and harder to bury
some of the personal struggles I'd been trying to ignore for so long.
Details aside (this is the public internet, after all), I was slowly
reaching my limit of mental exhaustion and my job was definitely
contributing to that. So, I left, with the intention of finding myself
something more sustainable, but ultimately more fulfilling. 

This was... terrifying, to be honest. I gave up something which, whilst
probably not great for me, was also a stable and reliable income,
something that I definitely don't take for granted.

Nevertheless, the immediate relief I felt the first Monday I realised I
didn't have to get at 7AM told me I was heading in the right direction,
so I pressed onwards. 

CampGND
-------

At the end of May, I found myself in a field in the middle of rural
Scotland with a number of my best friends, a radio or two, and far too
many LEDs. This was [CampGND][campgnd], a tiny hacker camp organised by
the [Scottish Consulate][scotcon].

CampGND was a hell of a lot of fun. It was a great chance to catch up
with people I hadn't seen since [2018][emfcamp], and gave me a
much-needed weekend to detox from the 9-5 lifestyle. I ate far too much
(it turns out deep-frying is a camping activity now), and extolled the
virtues of [hammock camping][hammock] to some of my tent-dwelling
friends. 

[campgnd]: https://scottishconsulate.org/campgnd2019/overview
[scotcon]: https://consulate.scot/post/
[emfcamp]: https://www.emfcamp.org
[hammock]: https://www.instagram.com/p/ByKg18Qhgy2/

Edinburgh Fringe
----------------

After CampGND, I set about working out what I wanted to do with myself.
I had a bit of money in the bank and a couple of on-going freelance
clients to tide me over, but I had to find something to sustain me in
the long run. 

A long time ago, before I took the job at BT which got me into
telecommunications, I had a fairly successful job as a sound engineer in
the various small to medium music venues and theatrical venues around
the town I grew up. I loved this, but at the time it wasn't massively
sustainable and so I never expected to make it my career.

However, the fringe _was_ coming up so, on a whim, I reached out to
[Summerhall][summerhall], the weird and wonderful arts venue who are the
home of Edinburgh Hacklab.

This turned out to be an extremely good decision: one interview and many
crossed fingers later, Summerhall were gracious enough to offer me a
Senior Technician position for the 2019 Edinburgh Fringe. 

So began one of the best seven weeks of my life. I do not think I could
have found somewhere I was a better fit if I tried, and our two
brilliant production managers, Brian and George, did a fantastic job of
making sure I was supported and able to fulfil my role, despite having
spent two and a half years pushing packets instead of pushing faders. 

Summerhall's Fringe programme itself was brilliant this year: Highlights
included Shasha & Taylor Productions' gorgeous Everything I See I
Swallow, which incorporated aerial circus and shibari an incredibly
well-composed exploration of feminist theory, and Sh!t Theatre's
incredibly intense Sh!t Theatre Drink Rum with Expats, which was a
75-minute onslaught of hilarious, compelling, and at times bitterly
uncomfortable agitprop performance art. They're [on tour][shittour]
right now, go see it if you can. 

The Fringe was a turning point for me: I felt tensions that had been
building up over the past year begin to release, and I decided that yes:
This is what I want to be doing. 

[summerhall]: https://www.summerhall.co.uk
[shittour]: http://www.shittheatre.co.uk

FDX Productions
---------------

Off the back of the Fringe, I was able to submit myself to a number of
Scottish production companies as a freelancer. It was initally slow
going - I was effectively starting from scratch, after all - but, one by
one, I started filling my calendar with bookings. 

A milestone came when I started signing my emails "Alfie Pates, FDX
Productions". That was the point where I committed to leaving the idea
of a 9-5 behind, and throwing myself head-on at this job that I adore. 

NorthernRST to now
------------------

[NorthernRST][nrst] was a friendly little conference put on by my
wonderful friends `hibby` and `[tj]`, from Aberdeen, and I had the
priviledge of volunteering my time to hopefully the first of many [Affa
Fine][doricdict] events. 

NorthernRST was a lot of fun. We sold out (and even sold a ticket on the
door), and, despite some technical difficulties, [we pulled it
off][nrsttweet]!

We spent the following weekend hiding in 57North, playing with
[radio][gb1rst] and drinking mulled buckfast. A good time was had by
all.  

[nrst]: http://northernrst.com
[doricdict]: https://media.scotslanguage.com/library/document/RGU_Doric_Dictionary.pdf
[nrsttweet]: https://twitter.com/adventureloop/status/1202890742605238272
[gb1rst]: https://consulate.scot/2019/12/gb1rst-northernrst-hackathon-2019/

2020?
-----

So, that was my 2019! A year that started on a bit of a bum note, but
also definitely not a year wasted. I'm proud of what I've achieved this
year. 

I wonder what I'll get up to next...

----

_The soundtrack to this blogpost is [the soundtrack to Season 2 of HBO's
Watchmen, by Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross][tunes]. I love Trent and
Atticus' scoring work, and this is no exception. Driving synthesiser
lines and sleazy piano-bar jazz go hand-in-hand, a contrast that only
Trent and Atticus could execute so flawlessly. This one's worth
listening start-to-finish, as loud as you dare._

[tunes]:

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title: Reflecting on 2019

Well, that's another year almost over. They seem to be happening faster
and faster these days.

2019 was an interesting year for me. It bought me some significant
challenges, but I've managed to overcome most of them to put myself in a
much stronger position for 2019.  

Be aware: There is nothing technical, nor particularly interesting, in
this blogpost. I'm writing this for me; as a pat on the back for making
it through some immense personal struggles. If you're the kind of person
who's interested in that, press on. If not, I won't hold it against you.
There's much more interesting stuff in the pipeline, hold out for that!

The rise and fall of $deskjob
-----------------------------

I started 2019 in what I thought was a fairly good place - I was still
in the honeymoon phase of a new job, enjoying some new-found stability,
and generally finding my feet after a turbulent summer.

However, coming from a summer of work which had me climbing scottish
hills to install point-to-point radio links, and splicing fibre against
the lush backdrop of Loch Hourn had really depleted my tolerance for
sitting at a desk five days a week, even if what I was doing sat at that
desk was still very cool and engaging.

At the same time, I found myself finding it harder and harder to bury
some of the personal struggles I'd been trying to ignore for so long.
Details aside (this is the public internet, after all), I was slowly
reaching my limit of mental exhaustion and my job was definitely
contributing to that. So, I left, with the intention of finding myself
something more sustainable, but ultimately more fulfilling. 

This was... terrifying, to be honest. I gave up something which, whilst
probably not great for me, was also a stable and reliable income,
something that I definitely don't take for granted.

Nevertheless, the immediate relief I felt the first Monday I realised I
didn't have to get at 7AM told me I was heading in the right direction,
so I pressed onwards. 

CampGND
-------

At the end of May, I found myself in a field in the middle of rural
Scotland with a number of my best friends, a radio or two, and far too
many LEDs. This was [CampGND][campgnd], a tiny hacker camp organised by
the [Scottish Consulate][scotcon].

CampGND was a hell of a lot of fun. It was a great chance to catch up
with people I hadn't seen since [2018][emfcamp], and gave me a
much-needed weekend to detox from the 9-5 lifestyle. I ate far too much
(it turns out deep-frying is a camping activity now), and extolled the
virtues of [hammock camping][hammock] to some of my tent-dwelling
friends. 

[campgnd]: https://scottishconsulate.org/campgnd2019/overview
[scotcon]: https://consulate.scot/post/
[emfcamp]: https://www.emfcamp.org
[hammock]: https://www.instagram.com/p/ByKg18Qhgy2/

Edinburgh Fringe
----------------

After CampGND, I set about working out what I wanted to do with myself.
I had a bit of money in the bank and a couple of on-going freelance
clients to tide me over, but I had to find something to sustain me in
the long run. 

A long time ago, before I took the job at BT which got me into
telecommunications, I had a fairly successful job as a sound engineer in
the various small to medium music venues and theatrical venues around
the town I grew up. I loved this, but at the time it wasn't massively
sustainable and so I never expected to make it my career.

However, the fringe _was_ coming up so, on a whim, I reached out to
[Summerhall][summerhall], the weird and wonderful arts venue who are the
home of Edinburgh Hacklab.

This turned out to be an extremely good decision: one interview and many
crossed fingers later, Summerhall were gracious enough to offer me a
Senior Technician position for the 2019 Edinburgh Fringe. 

So began one of the best seven weeks of my life. I do not think I could
have found somewhere I was a better fit if I tried, and our two
brilliant production managers, Brian and George, did a fantastic job of
making sure I was supported and able to fulfil my role, despite having
spent two and a half years pushing packets instead of pushing faders. 

Summerhall's Fringe programme itself was brilliant this year: Highlights
included Shasha & Taylor Productions' gorgeous Everything I See I
Swallow, which incorporated aerial circus and shibari an incredibly
well-composed exploration of feminist theory, and Sh!t Theatre's
incredibly intense Sh!t Theatre Drink Rum with Expats, which was a
75-minute onslaught of hilarious, compelling, and at times bitterly
uncomfortable agitprop performance art. They're [on tour][shittour]
right now, go see it if you can. 

The Fringe was a turning point for me: I felt tensions that had been
building up over the past year begin to release, and I decided that yes:
This is what I want to be doing. 

[summerhall]: https://www.summerhall.co.uk
[shittour]: http://www.shittheatre.co.uk

FDX Productions
---------------

Off the back of the Fringe, I was able to submit myself to a number of
Scottish production companies as a freelancer. It was initally slow
going - I was effectively starting from scratch, after all - but, one by
one, I started filling my calendar with bookings. 

A milestone came when I started signing my emails "Alfie Pates, FDX
Productions". That was the point where I committed to leaving the idea
of a 9-5 behind, and throwing myself head-on at this job that I adore. 

NorthernRST to now
------------------

[NorthernRST][nrst] was a friendly little conference put on by my
wonderful friends `hibby` and `[tj]`, from Aberdeen, and I had the
priviledge of volunteering my time to hopefully the first of many [Affa
Fine][doricdict] events. 

NorthernRST was a lot of fun. We sold out (and even sold a ticket on the
door), and, despite some technical difficulties, [we pulled it
off][nrsttweet]!

We spent the following weekend hiding in 57North, playing with
[radio][gb1rst] and drinking mulled buckfast. A good time was had by
all.  

[nrst]: http://northernrst.com
[doricdict]: https://media.scotslanguage.com/library/document/RGU_Doric_Dictionary.pdf
[nrsttweet]: https://twitter.com/adventureloop/status/1202890742605238272
[gb1rst]: https://consulate.scot/2019/12/gb1rst-northernrst-hackathon-2019/

2020?
-----

So, that was my 2019! A year that started on a bit of a bum note, but
also definitely not a year wasted. I'm proud of what I've achieved this
year. 

I wonder what I'll get up to next...

----

_The soundtrack to this blogpost is [the soundtrack to Season 2 of HBO's
Watchmen, by Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross][tunes]. I love Trent and
Atticus' scoring work, and this is no exception. Driving synthesiser
lines and sleazy piano-bar jazz go hand-in-hand, a contrast that only
Trent and Atticus could execute so flawlessly. This one's worth
listening start-to-finish, as loud as you dare._

[tunes]:

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[2019]: /blog/reflections-on-2019
[mm0aal]: /radio
[mm0aal]: /contact#radio
[mchf]: https://www.m0nka.co.uk

----

_The soundtrack to this blogpost is the Nine Inch Nails live album, [And All That Could Have Been][tunes], recorded on the US leg of the 2000 Fragility 2.0 tour. Another one to be played as loud as you can get away with - It's like I'm 17 again._ 

[tunes]: https://music.apple.com/gb/album/live-and-all-that-could-have-been/1440844763
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[tunes]: https://music.apple.com/gb/album/live-and-all-that-could-have-been/1440844763

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## social media

I don't do social media, really. Closest I come to that is an infrequently-updated [pleroma account][pleroma].

## email

Email `alfie@this domain` for personal stuff, or `alfie@fdx.services` for work stuff. 

## radio

I hold a UK Full Amateur Radio License, callsign MM0AAL.

[pleroma]: https://57n.org/a

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[miek]: https://twitter.com/assortedhackery

[ww][ww] 
--------

Canadian [academic][wwtardis], transplanted to Edinburgh. Bought a boat; [the boat has a Twitter account][halekaitwitter]. 

[ww]: https://halekai.uk
[wwtardis]: https://tardis.ed.ac.uk/~wwaites/
[halekaitwitter]: https://twitter.com/CutterHaleKai

_more coming soon..._

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I hold a UK Full Amateur Radio License, callsign MM0AAL.

I am a club official for MS0SCZ, along with MM0ROR (Iain/`irl`). 
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